And here we go.....

Today is the day of my scheduled induction.  I have a lot of feelings going on right now.  I think the one that sticks out the most is anxiety. I know the Lord tells us to "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.", but there is this nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach.  I mean, I've done this before.  TWICE even, but it always feels a little scary every time.  I'm not gonna lie.  I know what the pain is like so I know there will be pain.  I'm praying for peace right now.  I think the devil would love nothing more than to get in my head and scare me.  But this is such a huge event.  Too huge to be scared.  I'm having a baby!  I'm having a son!  Ahh,  God is so good.  I'm so excited to see my son.  I just have to relish that feeling and not let the devil drag me down the anxiety road.  Lord help me!!  I'm kind of nervous to leave my girls too.  I think that has a lot to do with the anxiety as well.  I've never left my littlest one alone over night and I'm praying she will be alright.  I know she will but you know, as a mother, you just worry about your babies.  I know my oldest will be just fine.  She adapts so well.  But the little one is still too little to understand why Mommy AND Daddy will be gone for so long.  All I can do is pray.  So....Lord, I just ask that you cover me with you peace.  I pray that you protect my girls and keep them in your arms while I'm away from them.  Give them your comfort.  I pray that this delivery of my son will do nothing but glorify you.  Thank you for giving me this opportunity to be a part of the creation process yet again. You're so awesome Lord.  Please forgive me of my fear and anxiety and help me to put my whole trust in you.  Thank you Lord for your many blessings.  Especially the blessings of my children.  I love you Lord.  Amen.